The day after I stopped being beeleaf I went for a walk in the woods. The weather had been foul, really windy and wet. I was doing the usual route with Willow and I noticed this bedraggled bee... on a leaf...
The bee was completely still with his back to me as I approached to look closer. I crouched down to get a good look and to, of course, take some pictures. As I got down he turned around and started to make his way, a bit clumsily, towards me. Every now and then he would get up on his hind legs and wave his fore legs at me. As if he wanted to climb up. I didn't let him of course, so he kept coming towards me, walking slowly, across the plant he was on. Until I stood up and walked a little way away. The he just turned around and walked back to where he had been on the plant originally.
Now I know that he had just sensed a tall thing that would get him higher or a warm thing that would dry him quicker. That's not my point.
My point is that it triggered in me a very powerful experience. It was like watching a massive analogy unfolding in front of me. I felt such love for this little (but actually quite big!) bee and a lot of gratitude and if I could I would have swept it up in my arms and loved & cared for it forever. However... it was a bee! So I didn't do that! But I have swept up and carried away the experience and I am still grateful for it!
Was it a sign??
Was it just a cold, wet bee tired after a hard day working in the wind?
Not sure it matters.
One question though.. have I done the right thing in walking away from beeleaf? Should I have kept beeleaf and Heart and Soil separate??