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Why I cancelled my 6000 tree planting scheme in favour of Scrubland, Heathland and Natural Regeneration (or re-wilding!)

I'm re-blogging this blog post from back in July 2012 after reading my friend Sarah's brilliantly researched article on scrubland. Scrub is Special - Save Our Scrub!


Hello there..

The 4.5 acre slope we were going to flatten to the ground and plant with trees is now an area of scrubland, heathland and natural regeneration. This was a HUGE decision for me to make. I LOVE planting trees and always thought it was better to plant trees, than not. However, I have learned a thing... sometimes it's better not to plant trees. It's true, honest! I won't be able to explain our thinking fully in this post but hopefully I can give you a wee insight in my thinking...

Firstly, here's a link to a blog showing me clearing some of this area with a slasher and then a pedestrian tractor rough cutter. This was in our first year at Stockwood and I had taken advice from the local Exmoor authority, the Forestry Commission and the Woodland Trust before doing anything. All were very keen for me to crack on and flatten the lot, plant it up with trees, put a massive red deer fence up around the whole area and manage the new trees with glyphosate.

It's worth mentioning here that the Forestry Commission made the point to me that if we can afford to, we should use a local tree nursery using native seed stock grown-on in this country. I had to refuse the 1500 free trees that the Woodland Trust gave me because I found out (just in time!) that the trees were coming from Holland. I refused them because I was concerned over the health & suitability of the tree stock, the energy in transportation and the likely use of fertilizers and chemicals to propagate and grow on the trees.  At the time I didn't know about the threat from tree diseases from trees imported by the Woodland Trust, Forestry Commission and the horticulture industry, I was just worried about the weakness of the trees causing them to easily catch a disease after I planted them.  Thank goodness I did refuse those trees from the Woodland Trust or I would likely have been planting ash trees infected with Chalara Fraxinea. Goodness knows where those trees destined for my scheme on Exmoor ended up.

Ok, on with the story of why I didn't flatten this area and why I cancelled the tree planting scheme



Refusing the trees from the Woodland Trust made something click in me, I began to realise that in my excitement I hadn't really thought this through. I was basing my decision to clear this scrubland and plant all of these trees on what I had always wanted to do and what I was being encouraged to do by organisations I trusted.  I now realise that these organisations are singularly focused on one thing (trees and more of them no matter what!) and have planting targets to reach every year which is all tied to grant money. This isn't a criticism, they're just doing what they're tasked to do, it's my responsibility to take their advice and then go away and get a wider perspective.  

The one thing I wasn't doing was listening to the land. Doing just that is how I got my wider perspective!  It's the tiny little Grasshopper Warbler I have to thank for finalising my decision to maintain this area as scrub, regeneration and heath land. This tiny little bird kept me awake at night for weeks with the crazy-loud cricket noise it makes because it chose to nest in the area of scrubland close to our yurt. The RSPB have given it Red Status, so I chose not to destroy it's habitat.

It was at this stage that whenever I had a visitor to the land I would take them for an explore around the scrubland.  After a while I would ask them how it would make them feel if I grubbed it all to the ground, fenced it from the red deer and planted it up with trees. My friend Karen, who is as mad about trees, woodlands and forests as me, looked at me horrified and said 'Don't do it. Please, don't do it'.  Every one of the people I asked had supported the idea of the tree planting scheme BEFORE they actually met and listened to the scrubland. After meeting and listening to the scrubland not one person thought I should go ahead with the scrub clearance and tree planting scheme.

I'm in my 4th year of observing this area now and it has taught me just how much LIFE there is in scrub. Adders, newts, slow worms, badgers, foxes, red deer, roe deer, bugs, spiders, beetles, loads of butterflies including the heath, pearl bordered and (on the edges) the Silverwash Fritillary, moths, bees and fabulous looking hoverflies & flies, goodness knows how many wild flowers and approximately a million visiting & nesting birds (including Cuckoo, Red Wing, Red Start, Woodcock, Grasshopper warbler, Dartford Warbler, Stonechat, Whinchat, Black cap, Longtailed Tit.. etc, etc...).

The Gorse and Birch are doing their job of being nursery plants well and there are now areas around the edges of the scrub full of young trees like; Hazel, Hawthorn, Oak, Rowan, all poking out the middle of a dense Birch thicket or an old Gorse shrub which is about to split from the centre to do the great tree reveal! There is even an ancient badger sett that has been meticulously kept clear of any scrub and is a perfect circle of grass, wildflowers and the odd clump of bramble. The relationship between the badgers and red deer are evident here, with the badgers creating many paths between their network of tunnel entrances and flat areas from their excavations, which the deer find a suitable place for resting in cover and feasting on the lovely grass.

As you weave your way through the scrubland you pass through areas of heathland, with large patches of heather, purple moor grass and other grasses and wildflowers.  There are trees, gorse, heather, wildflowers, lichens and mosses all spilling out of the ancient stonefaced hedgebank at the very top and bottom of the scrubland slope, where it meets an old coppice and water meadow where the old West lyn river pristinely flows at the edge. On the edge of the scrubland is StockWood, an ancient Oak woodland and coppice with beech topped thick stone hedgebanks and lessr spotted woodpeckers, owls and bats... Such an incredible mosaic of habitat! 

This year I am picking my way through the undergrowth like Mayweed out of Duncton Wood, snouting out the best pathways and finding so many treasures it's hard to contain myself. Here are some I have found today. It was late and the light low but the adventure was great!






















hen xx


First Snowdrop in full flower!

Well, not quite... this is the aftermath of our walk today...


I did find two snowdrops in full bloom though!  

My first reaction was of absolute and utter joy!  I got lost for a long while in just how delicate and beautiful it was.  The perfect symmetry of the two pure white hoods that protect the internal petal, that has been kissed on the tip with the softest green colour, just makes my heart melt.

My second reaction was 'I can't believe I don't have my camera!  I can't believe it!  I want to blog this moment!  I want all my lovely blogging friends to share in this and see just how beautiful this snowdrop is!  I want to sing about how I can feel the energy from the soil building and rising up through my feet and out through my head!  I can't believe I don't have my camera!  Grumble, grrrr!!"

So I made myself laugh out loud at the sillyness of it all!! A wonderful moment!

Well, what can I say?  Clearly I have lost the plot!!  Of course I want to be able to share here, with you all, the perfect, delicate nature of this first snowdrop in full bloom.  However, it 's clearly not the end of the world and in fact is probably a very good lesson.  

Hee hee!


hen
xx

  

Why am I Doing this Solitary Retreat?

Well... erm... I don't know. It seemed a good idea when I booked it and then, well, I'd booked it hadn't I? I couldn't cancel it, that would be rude!

I am afraid that I am not up to this and will want to come home after the first 3 days (which are notoriously difficult to get past). I am afraid that I will be staying somewhere, very remote, that I don't know. I am afraid of the night time, when it'll be dark and there will be noises I don't recognise. I am afraid that all the meditation and solitude will encourage things to emerge in my mind that I will not be able to deal with. I am afraid of coming home and being a different person to my family and friends. I am afraid of being alone.

Fear. The greatest cause of inaction. Maybe that's why I am doing this retreat? These fears, in reality, are not real. I am conjuring them in my mind as a reaction to my fear of change and my fear of what will emerge without distractions to protect me.


Well, enough of that, here are the main reasons I booked the retreat:

1) The Great Turning.
"The Great Turning is a name for the essential adventure of our time: the shift from the industrial growth society to a life-sustaining civilization.

The ecological and social crises we face are inflamed by an economic system dependent on accelerating growth. This self-destructing political economy sets its goals and measures its performance in terms of ever-increasing corporate profits--in other words by how fast materials can be extracted from Earth and turned into consumer products, weapons, and waste.

A revolution is underway because people are realizing that our needs can be met without destroying our world. We have the technical knowledge, the communication tools, and material resources to grow enough food, ensure clean air and water, and meet rational energy needs. Future generations, if there is a livable world for them, will look back at the epochal transition we are making to a life-sustaining society. And they may well call this the time of the Great Turning. It is happening now.

Whether or not it is recognized by corporate-controlled media, the Great Turning is a reality. Although we cannot know yet if it will take hold in time for humans and other complex life forms to survive, we can know that it is under way. And it is gaining momentum, through the actions of countless individuals and groups around the world. To see this as the larger context of our lives clears our vision and summons our courage."
Joanna Macy -www.joannamacy.net/

I was going to write all that myself, but Joanna Macy has said it all! Since I was in my early teens I have been an activist and aware of the World as it is in the description above. With my teen angst I fought and fought and got angrier and angrier. Nothing changed except there was a bit more anger in the world.

Now I understand that there is an individual responsibility. I can't change people. I can only live my life. So my resposibility is to find out the best way for me to live to benefit the whole. I can't do this easily while I'm being distracted all the time. So I am taking myself away for a bit to have a look and see where I am at and what I can do with that.

2) Meet myself.

On my last solitary retreat I met myself for, what felt like, the first time. Sounds odd doesn't it? Well, the experience of it was odder. I am an actual person made up of a bundle of experiences, atoms and things. I don't plan to work out what that actually means, that would be like meditating on what's beyond the edge of the Universe! It's just an interesting feeling realising that you are a being. A human being. Part of a long line of human beings and only one of infinite beings in the Universe. It's so cool, so liberating and really puts you in your place!

3) Have a nice time.

I plan to have a thoroughly nice time. I enjoyed my company the last time and don't see why this time will be any different!

Solitary Retreat - Preparations

This next few days I am preparing for my 2 week solitary retreat.

My preparations for the retreat are as follows:

1) Slowly increase my practice to 2 hours a day. A mix of sitting meditation, walking meditation, mindfulness in everyday tasks. This should help prevent my mind from going into shock at my meditation schedule next week!

2) Talking only when necessary. This helps to instill calmness and helps me to control my flitting mind by giving me more space to be mindful of what I say. I will be starting this in ernest tomorrow.

3) Move more gently and with awareness. Again, this will help to make me feel generally calmer.

4) Food preparations. I don't want to have to think too much about what I am going to eat everyday. So I am planning now what I will have. There'll be no popping out to the shops for two weeks, so I want to make sure that the important stuff is not forgotton!

4) Study material. Books and other writings.

5) Retreat book. I have a note book that I take with me on all my retreats and keep a sort of diary. It is an eye opener!

6) Bedding

7) Outdoor gear - hillwalking will be a part of this retreat.

8) Bivvy gear - I may want to go out into the hills and bivvy a night or two.

9) Spinning gear. I have decided one of my mindfulness practices is going to be handspinning. So I'll be taking some slivers and a wheel. I might decide not to take these though come friday.

10) Carving tools

11) Art things

12) Elm Dance. I will do the Elm Dance everyday morning and evening as my opening and closing ritual. It is a powerful dance that will help to connect me to the Great Turning movement across the world and ground me in my practice, help me to remember why I am doing this retreat. Which is another post entirely!


So, you see, I am going to have plenty to be occupied with. A solitary retreat is what you want it to be. Mindfulness and meditation is the main core practice of this retreat and creativity and nature is the theme. We'll see what happens after a few days though!


hen
xxx

Solitary Retreat and Mindfulness

At the end of next week I'll be going off for a 2 week solitary retreat. It'll be in a very remote place and I am really looking forward to it. I have decided that I am going to blog about parts of this retreat.

Going on retreat, for me, is very important. It's like an electric jolt to the spiritual system. Which is a terrible analogy, but it's late! I'll be going on the retreat without a time table or plan, as open minded as possible. It'll be good to see what emerges. There will be a simple format of meditation throughout the day, but nothing too taxing initially. I will be taking one rule with me...

be kind to my mind or it'll run away!

There is one thing that has been lolling about in my mind the past few weeks, Mindfulness. So mindfulness might become a theme of the retreat, who knows.

Mindfulness is the practice of being aware in everyday actions and reactions. It's not that easy for me, but I suppose that's why it's a practice.

The word 'practice' is my key word. Just like everything that I want to do in life, I have to practice in order to get good at any of it.

Day to day practice is hard though. Happily I've managed to stop beating myself up for not meditating every day or not doing lots of nice things for the world. It was just stopping me meditating and doing nice things for the world. So, I'm a bit kinder to myself and it seems to be doing the trick.

The solitary retreat may help me to strip away a few more of the trillion things that weigh down Hen and let me have a good old shake and come away a bit refreshed.

... Or I might go mad.


To be perfectly honest, I'm apprehensive about going, as well as excited!

;o)

hen
xxx


The Shepton Witch: Erk! Terminator Rises Again...

Please take some time out to read this post about Terminator Seeds, by The Shepton Witch...

The Shepton Witch: Erk! Terminator Rises Again...

Here is a quote from her post... "It seems that the 2005 moratorium on producing and selling crops, that will have sterile seeds when harvested, is likely to be overturned..."

Why is this a worry? If these seeds are sown it will have a huge negative impact on small scale farming across the world ('Third' world countries to Berkshire smallholdings). It will have a devasting effect on our Earths already struggling ecosystem/s. I state this as fact as that is how I view it. But please, don't take my word for it, visit the links given by the Shepton Witch and read the comments on her posting.

She is instigating a 10 Downing Street petition and needs help in getting the point accross in 1000 LETTERS only!!

Please, if you know more or have any links or suggestions please let us know!!

with much love and prayers for the happiness of all beings and non-beings,
hen
x

Kindness, Gratitude and Pants

Thank you for all your lovely comments! They have helped me push through the past few weeks!

We are in limbo at the moment, staying with family, waiting for a house to come up in Exmoor. Waiting is pants. There is no other word for it. However, we have a plan, so it's head high and onward!

Kim wrote a wonderful piece in her blog about the connection between us bloggers and forumers. Women who have never met, in person, offering open hearted support to each other. I used to be very suspicious about internet things and stuff, but now I don't know how else you are to meet so many people of like mind. The women and men that I have had contact with through the internet have been motivational and inspirational. I have learnt so much from all of you. In a way, it's wonderfully bizarre!

So, thank you and I wish all of you deep and lasting happiness forever.

hen
xx

The Great Turning and Solitary Retreats


The Sheiling, Dhanakosa

Last year I spent, in total, about a month in retreat in an attempt to settle my mind, answer some painful questions about our Earth and decide whether the direction I was headed was the right one. The final week of this was in solitary retreat in a hut in the Scottish foothills of Balqhuidder.

One of the retreats I attended was based on the Great Turning using the Work that Reconnects - conceived by the incredible Joanna Macy.

"The Great Turning is a name for the essential adventure of our time: the shift from the industrial growth society to a life-sustaining civilization." Joanna Macy
Please use the links to Joanna Macy's website to learn more. She has some strong answers to help us deal with our pain in this time of the Great Turning and give us the strength and inspiration to keep going and understand our feelings.

In my playlist is a song called the Elm Dance. Please take some time to have a look at the details of this powerful song and dance.

My plan was to go through the Work that Reconnects retreat and then immediately spend a week in solitary retreat allowing myself to let what emerged settle and what couldn't emerge, emerge... all with no distractions.

There is no way I suspected what I was about to experience. Just one week in solitary retreat, doesn't sound very long I know, but believe me, it's not easy. One week set aside to be alone without any distractions has had one of the most profound effects on my life. Going on solitary retreat clarified the job of learning and living. It's effects still permeate my everyday life, even when I'm being a bit rubbish. I had never really met myself. Finally, there I was, all fragile and powerful. Quite frightening to behold but also in need of care, attention and protection. For the first time I was able to feel compassion toward Hen and understand just how deeply important it is to be compassionate to oneself.

A Hen head, 5th day of Solitary Retreat

A week isn't long enough. To begin with though I think it's sensible to give yourself a chance and ease yourself in by starting with one week and then building yourself up. As I said, it's not a simple task. If there is one gift you give yourself in this life, I would suggest going on a solitary retreat should be somewhere near the top of your list. This website is brilliant goingonretreat.com.


View from the Sheiling

The solitary retreat photographs are fuzzy because I realised half way through the week I had a camera on my mobile phone. I hadn't thought of it before because there was no mobile reception up there! I'm happy I took the photo's!

Just Sitting



After feeling washed out and tired all day Leo asked if I'd like to do some breathing meditation. After fighting the urge to stay on the computer, I lazily agreed.

We sat in front of the fire for half an hour and followed a wonderful, guided meditation by Bodhipaksa. Utterly relaxing and mentally invigorating at the same time. (hmmm... maybe that's why I'm still up).

I'm fascinated to understand why
we don't do everything we can to be healthy and happy. If we're honest, we all know deep down what is best for our mental and physical health and we all know we could do better to look after ourselves. So what is 'it' that stops us?

I will fill my belly with rubbish that makes me feel pants and fill my brain with the same kind of crap (mostly due to my 'I can't help myself' attachment to channel 4 'aren't people mad' documentaries). I have a constant need to be distracted by something, anything! Rather than face up to the messy reality of my mind and the world around me.

Meditation helps me to remove the distractions. That's hard and sometimes painful. I suppose that's why it's so difficult for me to choose to meditate over doing everything else.

It's much easier to carve a spoon or make a basket, at least it only takes a dust pan and brush to clean that mess up!



Knoydart - just beautiful, but should we do more to nurture our home country?



When we have places as beautiful as this in our own home country, why would we not be proud and want to care for it?

Even in places like this people leave behind their rubbish, in many different forms. Why? I'm not sure I'll ever really understand it.
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